I’m going to begin today to memorize Psalm 103 in order to help me combat my rotten attitude. Here’s how it’s going to work:
Today I am learning verse one. I usually read the verse 10 times and then recite it 10 times without looking, but since I already know this one from a song I’m just going to read the whole psalm today.
Bless theLord, O my soul,
2 Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits,
3 who forgives all your iniquity,
who heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit,
who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,
5 who satisfies you with good
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
6 The Lord works righteousness
and justice for all who are oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his acts to the people of Israel.
8 The Lord is merciful and gracious,
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
9 He will not always chide,
nor will he keep his anger forever.
10 He does not deal with us according to our sins,
nor repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far does he remove our transgressions from us.
13 As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him.
14 For he knows our frame;
he remembers that we are dust.
15 As for man, his days are like grass;
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
16 for the wind passes over it, and it is gone,
and its place knows it no more.
17 But the steadfast love of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear him,
and his righteousness to children’s children,
18 to those who keep his covenant
and remember to do his commandments.
19 The Lord has established his throne in the heavens,
and his kingdom rules over all.
20 Bless the Lord, O you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his word,
obeying the voice of his word!
21 Bless the Lord, all his hosts,
his ministers, who do his will!
22 Bless the Lord, all his works,
in all places of his dominion.
Bless the Lord, O my soul!
And since the main reason I’m doing this is to fight my stinkin’ attitude, I may as well be honest about verse one. I know that it is right and appropriate and good that everything within me bless the Lord. I know He is worthy. I know He deserves my praise. I know those benefits about which David wrote! When I first forced my tail out of bed, however, my feelings did not want to bless the Lord for anything. My first thoughts focused on all I have to do today and all the ways I fail at doing what I need to do every day. Those thoughts led me questioning God’s wisdom and will over my life (once again). My feelings just weren’t cooperating with what my brain was trying to tell them to feel. All that is within me did not want to bless His Holy Name.
As you can tell, within the first seconds of waking I piled up a nice list of offenses.
I am so thankful that God did not give me over to feeling okay with not blessing Him today. After a couple of readings of Psalm 103 and considering His benefits, I had to ask His forgiveness for my blasphemous attitude. I also had to (and will keep working on today) my acceptance of His will for me. Motherhood is hard work! God has given me a huge responsibility. Part of my remedy lies in disciplining myself to see my responsibilities as significant trusts and as honors from Him. Considering the gravity of my tasks helps me stay focused. It helps to take my eyes off of me and put them on Jesus.
Otherwise, I would spend my day eating cookie dough and watching The Office.
Talk about trading a weekend at the sea for a splash in a puddle!